Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Discouraged

This is an update in which I have nothing really to update you about!

Our house has been on the market with a realtor for a week now. We haven't had any bites yet. I know a week isn't long but I am already discouraged. I just don't see why everyone doesn't love our house as much as I do!

I am also discouraged about our house hunting in NC. I'm trying to apply the same logic I have with selling our house but it isn't working! When selling I find myself saying, "You won't find a house as nice as ours for the price we are willing to sell it for and no house will be perfect." When looking to buy I find myself saying, "I don't want to settle or have to pick and chose (4 bedrooms or acreage). I want one house to have it all!"

Thus the discouragement. I guess having 4 bedrooms is more important than having a large yard or even acres of land. But I keep going back to our "dream" of growing old in the next house we buy. Sitting on the front porch in our rocking chairs when we are old and grey, looking into the woods and just being quiet. Holding hands. Smiling at each other. Talking about the good ol' days.

Besides that, let's be real here. We have 3 vehicles (one of which is a very loud diesel truck) and a camper. Not to mention 2 dogs who like to bark and escape and 3 kids who have lots of bikes, scooters and such. We need somewhere to put all our stuff! I don't think many people would want neighbors like us! And we refuse to live anywhere the HOA is involved. They wouldn't like us either!

But none of that matters until we sell our house! I'm trying to just trust God and let him take care of everything and just sit back and wait. That is very hard to do. I know he already has it figured out. I just wish he would tell us his plans. We still aren't even sure He wants us moving to NC!

Monday, August 12, 2013

single digits

My "little" girl is having a birthday this weekend! It will be her last single digit before the big 1-0!

The recent addition to the extended family has me going back to those days. The days of fear, anxiety and extreme love that comes with any child but especially the birth of baby number 1. The unknown can be overwhelming. I remember the day she was born like it was yesterday. A small 8lb 5 oz, jaundiced little girl. She was a good baby. Sleeping thru the night and in her own bed by a couple months. She had her daddy wrapped from the beginning.

She is growing into a bossy, dramatic, yet compassionate young lady. She is so much help around the house. I think she feels the pressure of being the oldest and often proclaims her desire for an older brother!


I can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for her. I often pray for nothing bad to ever come to my kids. I want to be able to shield them from everything. She is very sensitive and soft spoken. But I am learning it is more important to raise her up in a way that teaches her the love of God in any situation and show her that she can get thru any situation with God's help.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Halfway there

I'm sure you know by now that our house is officially on the market. It was a long, hard two months but we have made it this far. I wish I could say the worst is over but I'm not so sure it is! I have so many questions, so many things are uncertain right now.

We want to see if we can sell it on our own before we hand almost half our profit over to a realtor. We have 2 people coming to look on Sunday. I'm so nervous that they won't like it. I'm already imagining what they will say and convincing myself not to take it personally! For the record, I know both people who are coming to look. From school and school! Or I should say, I went to school with both of them (both were a grade or 2 above me) and one is a kindergarten teacher at the kids' school!

Brad's boss is not making things easy for him either. Not in a bad way, tho, for the most part. He keeps saying he will do anything, whatever it takes, to keep Brad here. He has already given Brad a $2/hr raise, which Brad did not ask for. He won't take no for an answer. I keep telling Brad he better not change his mind now!

Tomorrow we go to NC to pick up the kids after a very relaxing, quiet week without them. While I miss them terribly, I have to say, I really enjoyed my time without them. I don't think we would have got the house ready if they had been here. Now we just have to keep it ready once they get back!

Hopefully my next update will be proclaiming that we have a buyer!!

In all this I'm trying to remain level and focused. Thanking God for helping us this far and praying we will he happy with whatever He decides for us.