pity party for me

Yesterday I had a headache that just got worse and worse as the morning went on. By 11 I had already taken 5 ibuprofen and was getting no relief. I started feeling sick to my stomach and had a fever. It was 75* in our house and I just couldn't get warm. My whole body was aching. Sounds like I have the flu, huh? I slept for 2 hours on the couch and eventually felt some better. It's a good thing, too, because I had volunteered to take a meal to a family in the church who just had a baby. I didn't feel too bad the rest of the evening. I think all those ibuprofens started working at the same time! Around 10:00 the baby and I went to bed. I tossed and turned all night because when I would roll onto my side, it hurt my "milkers" as my sister lovingly called them whenI texted her at 4:45am! I got up around 3:45 because Abigail normally wakes up at 4am to eat and I could tell I had a fever so I got out the ear thermometer and it read 103.3*. Yeah, I felt that bad. Then it hit me all the sudden...tender milkers, red blotches, fever...it had to be mastitis or something. So I got out my nursing book and read about it. That was my diagnosis. Who knew something like that could make you feel so horrible?! Every joint and not joint on my body has been super achy all day. The dr called in an antibiotic that I have to take 4 times a day. I hope it doesn't take long to kick in.

Also, after I read what I could do for it at home, I got out the breast pump that my sister let me borrow. I was using it in the dark and I started hearing a weird noise. Turns out the milk was being sucked thru the tubing and back into the pump. Not good, I know! That's why I was texting her so early. I just wanted to cry. I'm glad she is the best sister in the world!

So all day I've been trying to nap when the baby naps but it is always time for something (lunch) or someone needs me. I did finally get an hour nap right before time to get Hannah but that has already wore off and I need another one!

Daddy is working late tonight so I will have to do everything....cook, baths, read...normal it's no problem but today I just feel up to it.

Thanks for listening to me complain!

I'm back....again!

My computer decided I wasn't allowed to blog anymore so I've been away for awhile but I finally got one by the goofy computer! =)

Over the weekend we went on our first camping trip of the year, also Abigail's first trip. We were all alittle nervous about how it would go but she did really well! We found out that she does not like 2 hour truck rides or doing it more than once a day!

This incident occured on Saturday when we went to the Columbus Zoo. We had planned on the trip there being about an hour long. We finally got into the parking lot 3 hours after leaving the campground! Traffic was horrible. We were all pretty cranky after that! Brad said he'll never go back to the zoo on a Saturday but I think it was just so crazy because it was the first good day for it and the water park right next door was opening for the first time this season. The day started our pretty rotten but ended pretty well because my sister and her crew came to the camp site that evening and we all roasted hotdogs and all the fixins' and, of course, smores!

Mother

I've realized more than ever just how much I love and need to be a mother in the past month. On Wednesday that is how old Abigail will be. I can't believe it. I often think of something I read on one of my blogger-friend's posts: The days are long but years are short. That is soooo true and I hate the way that works!! Why can't the days, nights and years all be short? Anyway, when Abigail first came home from the hospital, I spent a lot of time sleeping, feeding the baby, and crying. I had the baby blues bad. Every time I was alone, all I wanted to do was cry. About anything. Since daddy was home the first week and my mom was here a week and a half after that, I didn't do many of my regular "mom" jobs. I didn't take Hannah to school every morning, I didn't even see her before she left. I didn't help her with homework. I didn't make Ryan his lunch every day. All the jobs that I just do, sometimes not even wanting to do them. I started missing those things. Now that I'm back to work, I'm trying to enjoy these jobs every day. I haven't figured out how to enjoy doing the laundry or dishes, but for the most part, I'm enjoying my new life as mom of three. It can be hard at times. Abigail and I are still trying to figure each other out. SOmetimes she likes to be up at night and I really like my sleep. Or she likes to start crying when it's time to fix supper. Either way, I make do. I try to work or play with Ryan while she's sleeping so that when she's awake and wanting to eat, I'm available. Also, I have to say how great Brad has been the past month. When I am all done with the crying baby, need a break, or have something I need to do, he willingly takes over. He has done more than his share of the housework. I'm completely convinced that he is the best husband ever!

Things I love...

While standing in the shower this morning I started thinking about all the things I love. Don't ask me why! Here are just a few things on my list:

1. The smell of Pampers diapers


2. Hearing daddy say, "Listen to your mother." or "Don't talk to your mother that way." Most usually directed towards our son!


3. The smell of fresh cut grass


4. Hearing the kids play and laugh happily together


5. The smell of a baby, as long as there isn't a dirty diaper involved


6. Walking in the woods


7. When Brad runs his hands thru my hair...or Hannah


8. Seeing daddy interact with his kids


9. A hot shower


10. Sleep, which has been hard to come by these days

So what do you love?